Backing Up...

i was going through pictures from the babies birth and found these... I had to share.. These were taken the Tues. after their birth. The first day they were able to be together with us in our room. The happiest moment since their birth.. I will never forget how I felt when I held both of them together without any cords/iv's or machines attached to them or how I felt when I saw how Clint looked holding both of them how happy he was. it was how I imagined what it would have been like on the day of their birth only that moment had been taken from me you see I only got to hold Maccoy once for a brief few mins. before he was taken to the nursery for his bath and then from there on to the NICU. I felt like I had been robbed of those precious bonding hours with my baby. It hurt so bad not to be able to hold him, to care for him , to nurse him or comfort him when he cried to see him laying there in that bed hooked up to all these machines, IV in his little head and have them ask to do more and more test on him and have them tell us the "possible" causes of the so called apena episode. Those days I will never forget ever.... But the moment above I will never forget either in this moment I BECAME a MOMMY TO TWINS....