Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Freaking out...

Some days go by and Maccoy's heart defect is there but it isn't haunting me.. Other days it's there and it consumes me.. Today it is consuming me.... Why my Baby? Its not fair and I want to SCREAM and throw a Tantrum like a 2 year old...What if? All these thoughts make them stop.. A lifetime of worry and wonder...My poor sweet baby..Why?? Please God let my baby be okay....

3 comments:

mina said...

I think we all go through these feelings, in between the 'normalcy' of life. In a perfect world there would be no such thing as CHD.

Thoughts and prayers! Your heart family is here to support you!

Nicole McLaughlin said...

Mel you have every right to have these moments. I'm not going to tell you it could be worse (although obviously it could) because it is irrelevant. It's scary and heartbreaking and horrible that you have to go thru it...but you'll make it. One day at a time. Maccoy needed you as his mommy in this life to help him with this battle, be strong for him! :) Love ya.

Hazel Nut said...

It is OK to scream and throw a fit. It is OK to cry and stomp your feet. It is not easy being a Heart Mom. I just want you to know you are not alone.

(((big hugs to you)))